LOVE?


You're done with this, and you had enough of this. But why is this feeling keeps on haunting you inside again? You know this feeling and you know that your heart is starting to act strangely. you promised once that you will never had this kind of feeling again but here you are, eating your own words, engulfed by the reality that you're into it right now.

Some would easily express what they feel inside to the one they love. Some would prefer to hide it instead. you did hide your feelings for quite sometimes but this made your feelings so heavy, that sometimes you feel like bursting inside... and what if you tell this to her?...does in telling her what you feel inside would lessen the burden? What about her? does mutuality applied here? you told me once that she's facing her own problems right now, she's confused...what will you do? do you think this will help her? but you already expressed your feelings to her... are you happy? are both of you happy? Come on..!

If it is in keeping that feelings would make the woman you love at peace, then gave her that peace, gave her that freedom and made her focus on her life, don't bother her... you should not have express your feelings then. Things are complicated and it's getting even more complicated as time goes on... i don't know what makes your situation complicated, but i guess, the time and the circumstances are making it complicated... or probably, both of you are making it complicated...aren't you?

Are you happy? ...Love is happiness. love is magic, love is love! It should not have been love if you don't feel no happiness at all. Yes, you are happy, happy to see her, to talk with her, exchange ideas and stories, happy even in just a mere presence. i already heard this from you...No words can describe that happiness. No reasons, no explanations, just happiness and happiness alone would suffice love. Love has its own reason that can't be fathomed. it will just flow like a river and fly like a dove hovering the sky, like a wind that touches your skin. You just have to wake up one day and feel it inside. you are already blinded with all the sadness and only happiness appears before your eyes. you can no longer wait for another day to cherish what you feel inside. You're in heaven! but then again.. Are you happy? Are both of you Happy?

Is it All Happiness? it should be... But sometimes Love is not always milk and honey...i know you want it that way...you would have to... you don't want to end it... you want to remain to where you are, stop the click of the time... afraid of the time that this will end... you want to be under the spell of love forever... Love has no end as they say and indeed i would agree on that. But love must not be dictated, Love must be free, love must be given, love is not synonymous with mercy.. love must be open.. love is understanding, love is love...

But Love sometimes dwells on the other side of happiness...here comes the Irony of Love...Setting her free... giving her freedom... sacrifices... cries... loneliness... do you have to feel this way? do you have to let go?... to sacrifice? ...to be lonely? if it's hurting you inside... why do you have to feel this way? Are you afraid of commitment?...of decisions?...of love itself?... but if it's in sacrificing that love can grow... can you dwell on it? can you survive on it? can you fight for it?.... Or can this be stupidity?
Are you confused, perplexed?... you really don't know what to do?...Can anyone help my friend?


-melskiens-

Comments

Anonymous said…
grabe ka bro....!!!!

masarap magmahal at maramdaman na minamahal ka...dahil naramdaman ko yan pero kailangan din ready ka sa mga consequences...hindi masamang magsabi ng nararamdaman sa taong gusto mo, ang salitang paulit-ulit mong sinasabi "complicated" naranasan ko din yan...at nararanasan din yan ng lahat pero sa huli ikaw din ang makakagawa ng solusyon at kapag nangyari yon wala kang panghihinayangan at mararamdaman ang tunay na kaligayahan...just continue to love, kahit may maramdaman kang sakit dahil jan ka mas lalong magiging mapagmahal... kapag nangyari yon wala kang panghihinayangan at mararamdaman mo ang tunay na kaligayahan
February 10, 2010 at 12:49 AM
melskiens said…
grabe din ang comment mo, talagang nangagaling din sa karanasan mo...tama ka! let's continue to be inlove... Happy Valentines sa lahat (hmmm...ala ka palang name dito, sino po pala to?,hehehe)
February 10, 2010 at 8:08 AM
Anonymous said…
secret...bahala ka ng mag-isip kung sino ako...kung sinong naiisip mo yun na yun....just remember that nothing is hard if the heart has love, nothing is impossible when the heart understands and nothing is heavy when god is in your heart...kaya kahit "complicated" ang situation basta kaya mong unawain ang mga nangyayari malalampasan mo din yan.
February 10, 2010 at 10:40 PM
melskiens said…
cge na nga...salamat sa comment...indeed you're right...there's nothing more you can ask for if God's comes first in loving a person, after all it is in giving that love to the person where we can give back the love the God has given us first... enjoy Loving!!!
February 11, 2010 at 8:13 AM
Anonymous said…
of course i will...because that's one of the reason why i'm here in this world to give my love to those who need it even if it hurts me sometimes...hahaha.
February 11, 2010 at 8:04 PM
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February 25, 2010 at 8:16 PM
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Thank you for all the great posts from last year! I look forward to reading your blog, because they are always full of information that I can put to use. Thank you again, and God bless you in 2010.
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